Monday 7 March 2011
Lonely Ship
I fear that I will always be
A lonely ship upon the sea
On mighty waves I do abide
The roaring winds will be my guide
The things that I am searching for
The things that I wish to adore
Will not be found in current state
Nor ever will if at this rate
I do not hear the distant call
I do not see the flagships tall
But even though it doth call me
To live a life that sets me free
I choose not to acknowledge it
That flagships on horizon sit
“We walk two different paths”, I chide
But from these voices I must hide
Must not be found, Must not be free
For hence the victim I must not be
For fear of this I run away
If not, it’s me that I must face
Acknowledging that all those wrongs
‘Twas I, not them that dwelt upon
“Forgive and forget” is what they say
Yet I’m not obliged at all that way
For in my mind I still do fight
For myself and what I hold as right
While these things may be true
It seems no matter what I do
Others don’t know the same as me
They don’t see things as I do see
For if they did then they might know
Of what the things that I do stow
Open up when I recall
The terrible storm, the terrible squall
That plagues my conscience, that plagues my soul
Of days gone by, pains take their toll
“Courage”, they say, “Courage my dear”
“You’ll get through these things, have no fear”
I begin to believe it, I begin to trust
In myself, in my strength, in my own cut and thrust
Yet then I remember my faults and my flaws
And that sea-monsters fight with their armour and claws
I’d fight for others, but I’m too distant now
From port, from starboard, from stern, from bow
It seems that through no will of my own
I’m isolated, yet it seems fear hasn’t grown
To be all alone is what I seem to strive,
For this shows me that I’m still half alive
But more than alive is what I want to be
More than alive, more than the sea
I search for the things that I know I need more
I search for the things that I should search for
What are those things that I know that I need?
What are those things, where’s the sower and seed?
But could these ungraciously rebound?
And turn on me whence they are found?
The things that are my hearts desire
The things I know will be my fire
Could burn me up as they catch sight
of weakness. They could catch alight
If I give them any chance to seize
Upon my own humanities
But what if all I said was wrong
In courage did I find belong
a fire that on what did feed?
Not weakness, but upon the need
To fight for what I did believe
To search for those who called on me
Instead of isolate, regroup
To mend and fix, repair the troupe
In course I may also be restored
In course I’d find a dock to be moored
Forevermore leaving the turbulent waters
That carried us on but could never support us
If I never take charge of mine own enemy
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely ship upon the sea
On who else may it be but me?
I must still play a part in all
That’s planned for me once curtains fall
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